So proud..

Lilyan learned to tie last night all by herself. I was working on primary stuff when all of the sudden she gets all excited and tells me to look what she just did. We haven't even started teaching her yet and when we tie her shoes we don't tie the way she taught herself! She was and is so proud of her self, I think every shoe or item that can be tied and untied was last night about a hundred times. :) Why do my babies have to grow up so fast! I love all the new things they learn but can't they just stay LITTLE forever?! :) 

Trying out baby cereal...

Last week we had Brynlee try cereal and she wasn't a fan. We only got her to take maybe 4 bites and then she would close her mouth when we put the spoon to her mouth. Well today we tried it again and she actually liked it. It took a few huge smiles to get in the first few bites but after that she ate it just fine. I can't believe my baby girl is 5 months old already!

first attempt...don't let that smile fool you..

 second attempt and loves it...

such a big girl...

Carsyn and Brynlee tagged along with me today when I went Grocery Shopping! We hit up Walmart first and Brynlee slept through it, then we headed over to Albertson's to finish off our shopping and Carsyn asked me if we could let Brynlee sit in the cart like a big girl since she was wide awake and happy on the drive over. I was hesitant at first because I haven't bought a new cart cover and just the thought of all the germs. (yes grocery carts gross me out) but decided why not! So after wiping down the cart with wipes and using her car seat canopy she was all set to ride in the cart like a big girl and she LOVED it! Looks like we may be shopping like this from now on! :)

Really miss her....

Today has been one of those days where I just wake up wishing I could call my mom. Then so many things just keep reminding me of her. These kind of days I feel sad, angry, hurt and frustrated. I know I am almost 29 years old but I still could use my mom. There are so many things I wish I could tell her or have her help me through. I would give anything just to have her here again. I wish the hurt in my heart would just go away!

Next month on Feb 28th marks my mom being gone for 3 years! It has been a hard 3 years in so many ways, so many regrets, learning things I never dreamed of happening, having my dad remarry (I'm happy for him don't get me wrong but it was hard for me) and then also try to figure out how to handy all these different emotions. You would think that it would get easier but it sure hasn't. I really wish it would. Or the million questions could be answered without all the hurt that may follow.

Carsyn even starts having a rough time as it gets closer to his birthday. His birthday will always be a joyous but sad day for us now. We will always remember this day when my baby boy turned 5 years old and we buried my mom all on the same day. This year is extremely hard for me. Carsyn turns 8 and will be baptized and we both wish she could be here for it. I had to hold back the tears the other day when he mentioned this to me. The more I think about it all, the harder it is to hold back the tears. He misses my mom just as much as I do. And that breaks my heart even more especially since I can't fix it.

I just wish I could be strong for my children but I am slowly losing pieces of strength day by day! Wish I could have just one more day with her so my children could say goodbye to her, or for her to hug me or even just to tell her I love her. Never take life for granted, you never know when you will lose someone you love! <3 p="">
I love and miss you mom more then you will ever know!

October 2012

 My beautiful Mother

 December 21, 2004

 May 2007

Oh Baby B...

Please stop growing up so fast! Now you are giggling at your silly sister and daddy! It made your sisters night that she was the first one to get you to laugh! And man you have a cute little laugh! We love that you are always so happy and smiley! Please don't ever stop! 

Jesus wants me for a Sunbeam!

1. Jesus wants me for a sunbeam,
   To shine for Him each day;
   In every way try to please Him,
   At home, at school, at play.
   • Refrain:
     A sunbeam, a sunbeam,
     Jesus wants me for a sunbeam;
     A sunbeam, a sunbeam,
     I’ll be a sunbeam for Him.
2. Jesus wants me to be loving,
   And kind to all I see;
   Showing how pleasant and happy,
   His little one can be.
3. I will ask Jesus to help me
   To keep my heart from sin;
   Ever reflecting His goodness,
   And always shine for Him.
4. I’ll be a sunbeam for Jesus,
   I can if I but try;
   Serving Him moment by moment,
   Then live for Him on high.
5. This little Lady is now a Sunbeam at church! She is no longer a baby!! She wasn't happy when she learned that she wasn't going to Nursery but after throwing a fit and having a huge emotional break down she finally calmed down and loved her new class and teacher! Fingers crossed next week is easier for her!
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Just to name a few....

our Top 10 things to achieve in 2014

1. Eat Healthier. We are slowly going to be switching over to clean eating. This one we are doing for a few reasons but we aren't going to go all crazy at first because we all know we will eventually fall off the curb and then feel like we failed. We decided to slowly stop eating or drinking certain things but come the end of 2014 we will be much healthier and feeling better by doing so! 

2. Stress LESS! This one is mostly for me. My goal is to not stress over so much and just go with the flow more. And remember that things will always work out in the Lords time. 

3. Spend more time outside! Whether it is just playing in the backyard/front yard, going on walks, playing at the park, going to the zoo, going to the lake or even go hiking, WE will be spending more time doing things we love outdoors! 

4. Taking the kids on dates. This one we kinda started last year but things got tight and we fell off the wagon. But I will be making a list of things we can do with each of them that cost little to no money! This way we don't have anyone feeling like they don't get enough time with mommy & daddy! (I am super excited about this new tradition)

5. Doing Family Home Evening. Carsyn asked if we could do this one more so now I will make every effort to get back into the routine of doing it each week! 

6. Family Scripture Study and Prayer. Something we could be a little better about! 

7. Pay off our DEBT! This one is more for Trevor and I but will have major benefits for our family! We are starting back at the beginning with Dave Ramsey Total Money Makeover! (we already have 1 debt down now only 3 to go) 

8. Spend more time with each other. Another one for Trevor and I. We are hoping to go on More dates, but we will make do with dates at home if need be! AND Electronics turned off. 

9.  Have another baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Got you all excited didn't we. I am good with our little family. 4 is a GREAT number of kids for us anyways! (this was Trevor's little joke) Sometimes I wonder if he really is joking though. ha ha.

10. And of course Trevor and I both would like to lose some weight, tone up and just be the best we can physically for our children! 

Be Happy and Healthy is our Goal for this year! To NOT let things hold us back or get in our way!! Hope you all have a amazing 2014! We certainly will be! 

Smile!

Sometimes you just need to smile!

Quote of the Day!

"Someone will always be prettier, 

someone will always be smarter, 

someone will always be younger, 

BUT they will never be you! 

Don't change so people will like you. 

BE yourself 

and the right people 

will LOVE the real you!"

Quote of the Day!

Life isn't always perfect 

but it's always what you make it.

So make it count,

make it memorable

and never let anyone 

STEAL your happiness!